Heartfelt thanks to everyone for your support, prayers, and well-wishes. It’s been a tough weekend with a lot of tears. I am anxious to go in tomorrow, hoping like crazy that baby A is still going strong. I imagine I will feel like this every second until s/he is in my arms.
The support of this community means so much to me. I know a few people in person who have been through infertility, but they are all on the other side. Their children are happy, healthy elementary school students or teenagers. Most of the parents hardly remember all the rigamarole involved in their conception. It is nice to think that time may heal these present wounds. That there a chance the pain will fade enough to enjoy parenthood. But I hope I never forget this particular type of wanting. I hope that I can help others, if they find themselves in these cold, dark woods.
Each one of you who reached out over the past few days has been a guidepost to a warmer, safer place. I may not be out of the woods yet, but I think I am on my way home.
Today I found myself thinking about you and wondering how you were doing. Hoping no news is good news. Saying a little prayer for you and Baby A tonight.
Thanks for checking in, lady. I have been meaning to post, but haven’t been able to find the energy. Baby A is still doing well. We are 13 weeks tomorrow. xoxo
Yay! Close to the end of that first trimester. Great to hear.